Friday, September 14, 2007
In The Middle Of The Night ...
I often wondered how Emily was making it through nights with all of the feedings and going on no sleep. Recently things have settled down a little. The twins mostly sleep through the night and don't nurse at night (at least they aren't supposed to). As I have moved back into our room, I realized that Emily has been surviving by going into some sort of autopilot mode at night. I am pretty sure she does everything she needs to with out really waking up all the way.
Let me illustrate with a few stories I have observed recently.
Sometimes when one the babies makes a little noise or movement, Emily will go get them out of the crib and bring them into the bed and start to nurse them. When I ask her what she is doing, it seems as if I wake her up. She asks what time it is (thinking that it's morning) and when I reply that we just went to sleep an hour ago. Emily replies, "Awww, man."
Frequently if I move during the night Emily will pull the "stop short" move on me. I will be rudely awakened as she slams her forearm across my chest. When questioned she invariably tells me she thought that Abby or Zack was falling out of the bed.
The other night Emily wakes me up, hands me Zack, and says take her out while I try to get Zack to go back to sleep. I confusedly look at the baby I am holding to make sure I have the identity right, and then ask, "But isn't this Zack?" Then Emily looks at the baby she is holding and sees that it is Abby. As I leave I hear her say, "Ohhh, I am so confused."
On another night, Emily was nursing Zack. However, as previously noted Emily is prone to identity mistakes when in autopilot mode, and she believed she was feeding Abby. So naturally she went to put Abby (really Zack) back in the crib when done. She only fully woke up and realized what what had happened when she laid Zack down right on top of Abby.
This all culminated a couple of nights ago. Emily wakes me up and tells me to hold on to Zack to make sure he doesn't roll out of the bed while she goes to the bathroom. She gets up and leaves whilst I grope around the bed trying to find something that resembles a baby. Unable to find anything I go back to sleep (not because I am that apathetic about my parental duties, but because I realize now that Emily has delusions in the night). Only in the morning did I realize how serious the situation was. Not only did Emily think that I was holding Zack for her the night before, she thought she was bringing Abby with her to the bathroom. It was only after a minute or two in the bathroom that she noticed she was holding a pillow! Both the babies were in their crib the whole night.
Many of you have made comments to Emily like, "I don't know how you do it, I would lose my mind." I just thought you might feel better knowing that Emily is losing hers as well. Even more amazing is the she is a fabulous mother even in this state of mind.