Friday, September 10, 2010
Mr. Potato Head's Bum...
I was working on the dishes this morning and I was feeling tired. Just plain tired. I heard Zack calling from the other room so I went in to help him put Mr. Potato Head's "bum" back on (for the ten thousandth time) and I couldn't help wishing that they all didn't need me so much. I walked back into the kitchen and this song (that I LOVE) was playing on my Slacker (which I also totally LOVE!!) and I had one of those moments where the stars all align and I realize that I need to do things differently.
It sort of hit me that very soon that little man of mine isn't going to need me to put Mr. Potato Head's bum back on for him. They aren't going to need me to tie their shoes (Lila already mastered that, actually). They won't come into my room at night and tell me about their nightmares and they won't wake up first thing in the morning and run in to tell me about their dreams. They won't need me for all the little things that are so tiring and so tedious and occasionally oh, so sweet.
As I was washing those dishes I realized that because I've been so busy, I've allowed myself to think that I'm too busy to do all the little things they want me to do with them. Too busy for Battleship and Pretty, Pretty, Princess and making cookies at dinnertime. Too busy to stop and really comfort and listen to whoever has been hurt, wounded, offended, or wronged. Too busy and way too tired to just play.
After that little reminder and with this great post floating around in my head, I tried to enjoy the moments more. We made those cookies Lila has been begging for and instead of just tossing the beater into the sink I let them lick it. They passed it from one tongue to the next, to the next, and back again. Instead of being totally grossed out (though I was a little of that) I thought, "well now, look at the childhood memories of sharing that we're making!!"
And it's been better. It's been sweeter and happier and I've enjoyed them more.
I think Mr. Atkins is right. I AM going to miss this. (at least once in a while!!)